All I've Ever Wanted

All I've ever wanted. All I ever want for you. Is a sober life. My heart breaks as I watch you slowly kill yourself with this addiction. I can't help but be sad. I can't help but hurt for you. For us. For what's left of our family. I hate that we became so close the first two years. For us to lose our relationship, yet again. I saw you last night, Held your broken soul, and your bruised body, while you struggled to explain why. And all I could say to you was that I loved you, that I will always love you, that I am hurting for you. And the only reply I got from you... Was a blanket and hands over your face. You are dying, you are killing yourself. And after 25+ years of this. I've realized, I can't help you. And I'm not sure you can really help yourself. So, now I watch you, my dad, kill yourself. I'm sad. I'm so sad. That not one person, except yourself can change this. So I wait... Always loving, and never judging.